Was I Snoring???

I remember the scripture that explains to us that only God knows our heart. I understand and believe that. I also know that sometimes people around us think they understand our heart...crazy to me, since we don't know it our self.

Some days it seems my heart is laid out for all to see and interpret their way. In the midst of all this confusion and chaos down here, it is refreshing and comforting to know that God indeed understands my heart. Its OK if I do not, because He does. Ahhh...like a cool breeze when I surrender and accept His purposes in my life.

You'd think that by now, at my age (not going to write THAT down), I would understand my heart; know my goals, my desires and my strengths. But alas, it seems the older I get and the longer I walk on this earth, the more I know that I don't know.

Is anyone out there with me on that? Do you also find that days go by when you ponder on where you are going in this season of your life? Sometimes it seems I am treading water with no particular motive then all of a sudden - WHAM - something hits and I'm off on an adventure I never expected.

This one thing I do know: when you are in a season of treading water its best to be preparing yourself for the next onslaught - adventure - assignment, because when it comes there is rarely time for preparation. I'm thinking of the parable of the virgins who did not have enough oil when the Bridegroom arrived. Treading, sleeping, waiting; it is all difficult because I am tempted to be lazy and forget my purpose here.

Today, Lord, help me to prepare while I wait that I might be ready when you call.