It appears that fall has finally decided to honor us. This is my very favorite of all seasons - the colors, the temps, the sports - I love everything about fall. This year I am following a football team, a softball team and two soccer teams. Whew - being a grandma with a camera is not for the faint of heart.
Since my blog is entitled Seasons and Memories, it seems appropriate to post something about the season change. That was the first paragraph. Now for the real season change: my life! Goodness, I sailed through the first empty nest syndrome with flying colors. By the time the last child had moved out, the first ones had returned with grandkids in tow. Grandkids ease the pain - no matter what it is - they just have that ability to make me laugh and enjoy life. This time however, the empty nest involves most of my grandchildren. We have gone from 15 who push and shove for their turn at weekend sleepovers to two who come occasionally.
Now, don't get me wrong; our older grands still love us and we have a great time when they come. We still talk and interact and play games and hug and eat and laugh - it's just that it doesn't happen as often as it did before. In addition, two of our children have moved out of state and are happily making a life several hundred miles away from us. Although I am thrilled for both of them, it still leaves two more empty places here in GA.
We will see them every few months but it isn't the same as popping in mid-morning for a cup of coffee, coming home from church and enjoying Sunday lunch together, or meeting at Barnes & Noble for a latte. Not surprisingly, the Lord has been unusually close to my heart during this transition. I am more aware than ever that He will never leave me nor forsake me; that He is a friend who sticks closer than a brother.
Families are wonderful and I love mine with a deep, unconditional love; but this love of God - well, it's different. I fully understand and acknowledge that I could never love even my own little darlings unless He put that love in my heart. So, I guess today's post is actually a thank you to Jesus for His wonderful love. Thank you for the love you placed in my heart for you and for others and thank you for the love you show to me every moment of my life.
Walking in the Light does expose much that I would just as soon not see, but it is well worth it to experience this amazing love that lets me be me; lets me love with abandonment; holds me when I hurt and confronts me when I hurt others. Thank you Jesus. I love you! :-)
Families change, children and grandchildren grow up and make their own lives. It is a good thing. But this grandma is growing and changing too. I'm ready for this next season and whatever the Lord brings to me. Yes, I sleep a little later in the mornings and stay up later at night, yes, I enjoy that second and third cup of coffee on the porch, but that's OK. My life is exactly where it should be and I am right smack where God placed me...for now. Tomorrow? Who knows? Maybe I'll take on something new and exciting. I can still do that. But for today I think I'll just relax here on the porch with my grandson who surprised me with a visit. We'll discuss the state of the world ... through his eyes. I just may learn something. Love it!!
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Love it!!!!!!
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